When I was growing up, I thought I'd be a lot happier if I was famous and successful and if I had money.
I don't know if this is the kind of retrospective analysis that people are fond of applying to their work or actions, but it feels like I knew I was going to be famous and I knew that an element of that would be traumatic, so that if I could make myself something big and otherworldly, it would be a kind of defence.
Strength does not have to be belligerent and loud.